i am dumb ...
 

I am trying to recover an account but I cannot reset password because my associated email Jadespectrum@gmail.com has been deleted by Gmail ... if theres any info you can give me or anyway I can revert to a different email please let me know and thank you for you time

From what I recall, since this is a fairly common issue, I'm PRETTY sure you're boned.

New account time.

Yes, from what I've read there's nothing that can be done at the moment. Password recovery is not available at this time due to security issues. There's a whole thread stickied somewhere IIRC.