I know the online nomme de guerre of this individual, and I'm sure Trump does too. I've also seen his picture years ago, I believe. Call me biased by my previous knowledge of this individual.
I know he's young. I can tell by his observations that he's very intelligent, and that he distances himself from people he could potentially have a friendship with, although not all of them. He likes his time to himself, to reflect on his day, on what people do, and on how his life is changing. He occasionally lets go of himself and graces the people around him with some entertainment, and he enjoys the attention until he's done.
I understand the poetry, and like Trump, I wrote similar stuff. I felt it was very refined and very wise at the time, but I have since looked at it as "something I just did because I was pissed off all the time". I was never an introvert until my parents changed my schools 7 times, and my home 7 times (not always at the same time). It's easy for me to leave it behind, but I think Dominic has been introverted for more of his life.
He's moody and judgmental, and it's disheartening from such an intellect. I agree with him that there's a sadness with knowing the self-destruction of others, as voiced in "Follow the Leader", noticeably named like the Korn album. I think every perceptive man of a certain age writes this poem, if only in his head. I'm of the opinion that it's an inherently wrong idea, and that mankind is a silly thing to begin with. To believe that people, all people, will find or will have found some sort of enlightenment or goodness or common-sense at the exact moment that you notice them is ludicrous. It's expecting more from mankind than it has to offer, and it's misunderstanding the nature of anarchy that runs our lives. Awful things and awful people, and stupid decisions are part of our cycle of life. It doesn't make it wrong to despise the idiocy of the moment in our lives, and the lives of others.
Idiocy is only the failure to be great, and to expect the ideal all the time is to prepare for the failure of mankind.
I'm not sure what troubles him, but he is depressed. He is sensitive, broodish, and unsure of himself among his peers. He feels separated by his intellect, and that his troubles would be misunderstood. He seems to have family problems, unvoiced troubles locked away, and tears he feels that he would like to share, if it were only okay. Repression is a bitch. Call me a wuss, but I would cry myself to sleep sometimes for some of the things that happened to me, that I just couldn't clear from my mind. I didn't feel weak that I had cried, only that I couldn't have prevented the cause of my sorrow.
I think Dominic is unsure of himself, and wants the world to understand him without having to change himself. I don't know him personally, but I think he's a good guy, and I'd tell him so in person if ever I met him. And I've been here:
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Originally Posted by Dominic Micale
I hope to find someone like me,
I do not talk of someone to love or a friend,
Just someone who has the morality that I have,
To know that what I am is not taken in vain,
That my existance here has some meaning,
Because if I have no meaning,
I do not wish to exist.
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and here:
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Originally Posted by Dominic Micale
Emotions
Emotions are something I have held deep within,
I hid myself from the world allowing no one to see what I could be,
Something that may be thought to be impossible to do,
But when my mom tells me she forgot what my smile looks like,
It must be true,
I lived this way for years upon years,
No one knew what was going on inside of me,
I believe I was doing it for my own good.
However, I let go and I stopped hiding,
Now I may feel happiness,
But along with this happiness,
Sadness and anger comes along and consumes me,
I attempt to decide which way was better for me,
But I still stand here, unable to decide.
But as I write this,
Ive become aware of something I never thought of before,
If I become what I once was,
How will I effect the people around me?
Will it have any effect at all?
I feel that false accusations will occur if I change again,
So now must I force myself to live this way?
Not having a decision?
Or will selfishness consume me and I will no longer care.
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My poems often matched in meaning and changed in words the feelings expressed here. I agree wholeheartedly with the final stanza quotes here sans the typo "effect the people" (affect). :P
Hey, Dominic. I know you read these. Cheer up. Get some sun. Go get laid. I've been to the dark place you've been, and stayed there for so many years until I confronted what had hurt me for so long. And what nobody could possibly understand for 14 years suddenly didn't control me anymore. It comes and goes, but the anger is gone, and forgiveness and understanding follow. Humans weren't designed to be like the movies. We're enhanced animals, and funny creatures, who just want to be happy. I prefer to look at the world the way I've seen it since I let go of my troubles. It's like a Shakespearean play, with so much goofiness, drama, and joy in it. You just have to sit back. Enjoy the misadventures with a grin, because it doesn't get any better than loving the mistakes that people make, that make people human.
One day, the rain clouds will be there, and you'll be smiling.
About the poems, anyway, they're good. I would say more about them, but I've read and written 100 just like them, and they fare about the same. It's a rite of passage. They're smart, well-written; no real grammar mistakes exist. The flow is nice. Dominic is a smart guy, and these are good poems, appropriate and profound.